"So...."

I realize my last four posts start with "So." So? Maybe SO..... ha. WTF ever.

So anyway, I watch LFC play Fulham today, abysmal. I don't know what has happened with them. Possibly Benetiz has lost the plot? speculation abounds. I want LFC to lift the EPL title. I don't care about the rest, just the EPL title. Looks like Rafa is playing for Champions League. Don't know. It's Halloween, I've been drinking. Right now, just thinking about that. Nothing deep, nothing probing. Just football.

So it's been almost a month and a half since my last blog. A lot has happened, and nothing has happened. It's like it's all busy work, our lives, living them out, pretending we know why we are doing it. I guess if you are Christian, like my wife, this isn't vexing at all for you. I am Agnostic. My actions have to have purpose, pragmatic purpose. Day to day, with all the little things that happen, sometimes it's overwhelming. Not overwhelming really, but it really makes me start questioning everything. Our purpose in life, why we are here, what my focus should be, etc.

I had a really interesting lunch with a friend of mine a week or so ago, and he got off on this whole thing based off of an experience with an illness and some antibiotics that where prescribed to him. It was great, listening to him talk about it. Anyway, he had an out of body (out of universe?) experience (not really, it was more a dream) which kind of put a lot of things in context for him, about how insignificant we are and how it is so totally egotistical and presumptuous to even consider we are the only life forms in the universe. And it ultimately came back around to religion, because it assumes so much and always talks about about how things are because the Bible says so, or God or Jesus says so. The bible was written by men, hundreds of years after Jesus was gone... but that's another blog (rant).

It was a good talk, because a lot of what he said I felt the same about. What I learned, studying Philosophy, was how little I know, and how little we could ever know about the cosmos, and the possibility of life of on other planets, and creation, etc. That's why I am Agnostic. And it's also why I am looking into Existentialism...........